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In God’s Image

​Honestly, we wonder why young girls and even women develop eating disorders and obsessions with their appearances.
But you know what I see when I scroll through my Facebook feed, what I see on the TV? I see the women that these Youngs girls and other women are looking up to posting and sharing about always wanting to lose weight, sharing tips and “quick-fixes” for burning fat, ironically ridiculing themselves on their appearances while trying to make it seem like it’s a joke:  always wanting to look better.

Now, don’t get me wrong: losing weight for health reasons is great.

It’s when it becomes an obsession that it becomes dangerous–not only to you, but to those around you. Your daughters, nieces, sisters, cousins, friends, all of these girls and women are seeing these things that you share and post.
And in their eyes, you’re already beautiful, they don’t see why you do this.
What’s even worse, is when these young girls and other women resemble you. You constantly tell them, “Oh, you’re beautiful!”
But then you turn around and constantly complain about how you need to lose weight, need to change your appearance and put yourself down; to those girls that resemble you, you’re basically saying that they need to lose that weight or change their appearances, too. It may not seem that way to you, but it does to them.
Trust me.

I know New Year’s resolutions are ALWAYS about losing weight, but why don’t we instead make our resolutions about bettering our own images of ourselves?

Why can’t our resolutions be about being healthy physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually?

Yes, sometimes being healthy physically leads to weight loss; but instead of obsessing over the weight loss itself, focus on just being healthy.

There’s a reason we don’t all look identical. We are not meant to be carbon copies of each other, all a certain size or skin tone or body type.
Some people have larger frames, some people have smaller frames.
Some people have more curves, some people have less.
Some of us juggle more than others, and that’s okay.
Some people can’t lose weight, and some people can’t gain weight.

Stop the fat shaming of ourselves, and stop the thin shaming of ourselves

Let’s start loving and taking care of ourselves.

Lead your daughters, nieces, sisters, friends, and any girls/women around you to view themselves the way God already views them: fearfully and wonderfully made, made in His image. And I’ll tell you, God didn’t  make a mistake when he created any of us.

I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. Psalms 139:14 (ESV)

First Two Weeks of College

​Okay, so first things first: updating a lot while I was in Missouri did not work out—for various reasons that I don’t really want to get into. I apologize for not updating as much as I said that I would.

That being said… Let me tell you about my first week being back in college!

I love being in school. It gives me a sense of purpose, I am meeting new people, I am learning, I am getting pushed out of my comfort zone. I love it.

So, after I moved in on the 21st of August, I spent two hours unpacking and getting everything set up like I wanted it. After I unpacked, I took the time to see how long it would take me to get to my classes from my dorm. I found out that it takes eleven minutes to get to my classes from my dorm. All of my classes are in two buildings, and those buildings are literally right nect to each other. I lucked out on that part. I have three English classes, a philosophy class, and a history class.  I am also on the school paper. We all have to write articles and pitch ideas, but I am also co-copyright editor. I haven’t actually written any articles yet, but I am working on two that I have to turn in by Thursday; so wish me luck!

Anyway, so once I figured out how long it would take me to get to class, I just went back to my room and relaxed. I didn’t know anyone and I don’t have a roommate, so I just went to bed early. The next morning, I got up with enough time to take a shower and do my makeup. I left my dorm twenty minutes before my class started so that I could stop to get a coffee, and see how long it would take me to get a coffee (usually only about five minutes). I usually have coffee in my room, now, but sometimes I just go get a cpffee frpm the coffee shop. Its easier some days.

My classes went fairly well that first week. It was mostly just going over the syllabus and how the classes would work and everything. I didn’t really have any homework until the second week.

The second week was a little more chaotic. Not entirely so, just a little. I started getting assignments and working on essays. I wrote a poem for my poetry class (which had to be critiqued, yikes!). I went to a lecture about the Brexit vote (if you don’t know what that is or don’t know much about it, I would definitely recommend checking into it). I got a new pair of hearing aids! I tell you, I am not used to hearing so much. It’s a little overwhelming at times, but I am slowly getting used to it.

When I went to the lecture for the Brexit vote, I met some really cool people. I ended up wearing my Guinness shirt (not on purpose, it just kind of happened). One professor (who I will call Guinness because I don’t know his name) commented on it, and the conversation went something like this:

Guinness: “Hey, awesome shirt! Guinness is really good.:

Me: “Oh, thanks. I haven’t actually tried it yet. I just really like this shirt. It is comfortable.”

Guinness: “Well, Ireland is the best place to try it.”

Me: “Oh, well I can imagine. I want to go to Ireland one day. It’s my dream place.”

Guinness: “Oh, well, Ireland is my study of expertise. And Dr. Jennings takes a class to Ireland every Spring; you should definitely get in touch with him about it.”

Me: “Really? That’s so awesome. I kind of informally study Ireland. I love everything about it. I use Ireland and the Celtic myths in my writing.”

Lady Professor: “Oh, you should meet this other professor’s wife! You would love each other. She’s from Ireland!”

Me: “Awesome! Yeah, I’d love to meet her.”

Lady Prof: “Oh, she is just going to love you. What is your name? Hold on, let me make a note about you here on my phone. You should add her on facebook! I’m sure she would love to read your writing, and tell you all about Ireland. Okay, I am going to send her this note about you. She is just going to love you!”

At this point, I just kind of laughed and went with it. They started ushering us into the auditorium for the lecture, so that was the end of that conversation. But I thought it was really cool. I love finding other people that love something as much as I do.

So, last night, I met some of the foreign exchange students here. They are great people. So funny and nice. They like drinking tea, so I brought my electric kettle out so that they could have some tea. There were several students from Pakistan, a couple students from Africa, a girl from somewhere (I didn’t hear where), a guy from Russia. Those are just the ones I met last night. There are a lot of foreign exchange students here. There is a girl from Ireland here and I want to meet her so much. I will eventually, hopefully. And apparently there are a few students from Britain, so I am excited and hopeful to meet them, as well.

I’ve (thankfully) become pretty good friends with at least one girl that I have a class with. We have so much in common and just get along so well. I’m glad to have her as a friend. We stayed up until two in the morning last night. We did each other’s makeup and painted nails, watched a movie, drank tea, and just talked. I am so glad that I have made a friend. There is another girl that I am friends with, but we haven’t talked as much. I hope we can become pretty good friends, too.

I also met a girl this week who also wears hearing aids, and she also has a cochlear implant in one ear. She saw mine and asked if I wear hearing aids, and we talked for a minute about that. Then she mentioned that the batteries in hers were dead, so I gave her some of the batteries that I had in my backpack with me. Always willing to help out someone. She seemed nice, but we didn’t get to talk very much. Maybe we will eventually.

I think that is all that has happened in the last two weeks. If it is not, then I will include it in the next update about my college life! I hope that anyone else who has started school recently is doing well and I hope you have a great rest of the school year!

Dark Obsessions

​I may step on a few toes with this post, but that’s okay. 
People in this generation are obsessed with the psychotic, the creepy, the dark, the evil, the twisted side of life.

And I just don’t understand it.

What is so “goals” or perfect about these things?

Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy sitting in a dark room by myself when I have a migraine or such.

I understand that these obsessions probably show the mental illnesses people go through. Fine. But why be obsessed with them?

Fine, enjoy Halloween because you get to dress up and there’s lots of candy. That’s fun. But don’t obsess over it because it’s a time you get to be dark and creepy. I know so many people that love it because of its creepiness.
I know so many people that love the psychotic things. Like The Joker. Yeah, okay, he’s cool and all in the movies and comics or whatever. But people become obsessed with him, want to be like him. He’s a killer, a criminal; he’s psychotic. And people want a relationship like his and Harley’s. What–why? The Joker was abusive to Harley.  (She’s psychotic in her own special way, as well.) The Joker abused her mentally and physically and emotionally. Why would you want a relationship like that?

I can’t tell you how many people I know that are obsessed with horror films. Enjoying a horror film now and then isn’t what I’m talking about. I’m talking about Freddy Krueger being one of your favorite people. I’m talking about the paranormal being one of your favorite subjects. I’m talking about everything to do with zombies being a passion of yours. Why? I don’t understand the obsession with horror. Is life not filled with enough horror for you? Just watching the news fills me with all of the horror I need.

On a branch of that, people seem to be fascinated with serial killers, as well. Why are you fascinated by someone who illicits joy from murdering people? It’s not funny, cool, romantic, or anything else other than appalling.

We moan and groan and throw up riots when one person kills another, yet you idolize those that kill many. Why is that? Is it more acceptable to kill the masses instead of a single human?

And speaking of these things showing people’s mental illnesses, people are obsessing over that as well. Popularizing mental illnesses and death. To quote Twenty Øne Pilots, ” We have romantic fantasies about what dying truly is.” Mental illnesses and suicide should not be romanticized and popularized. These are serious issues that people deal with daily. They aren’t something to be chosen and taken lightly. Lifting the stigma around them is great, allowing people to talk about them without feeling guilt is great. But telling people that’s what they have without proper diagnosis isn’t what that’s about. Just deciding it’s popular so you have it too isn’t what that is about. Please understand that.

I see people posting things saying: “When you’re insane…”; “When you’re crazy…”; etc.  Do people not realize the actual meanings of these words? Do they not realize that people have been called these things in such derogatory manners, yet they claim them as a joke or to seem cool. Why do you want to be labeled as insane/crazy? I don’t understand.

Maybe this post doesn’t make sense to some people. This is my own personal opinion, and sometimes opinions don’t resonate well with others.

Here’s what I’m trying to say, in a nutshell: Our generation is too caught up with romanticizing  mental illnesses, attempting to appear psychotic, and being obsessed with dark images. We say we want to help those with mental illnesses, we want to stop wars and have peace–but how can we do any of that when we are obsessed with and romanticize the very thing we are trying to stop?

To the College Freshman

This post goes out to the college freshmen out there. You know who you are. 
So, it’s your first year at college. Most likely, you’re away from home and staying in the dorms. Good. Dorm life is much better.

Are you excited? You should be.
Are you nervous? That’s okay, too.

Believe me, my first year, I was a mess of emotions. I was excited to be out on my own. I was nervous because I wouldn’t know anyone there (I decided to go to school out of state, at a private Christian school). I was excited to learn on a higher level and be treated like I was competent enough to understand what the professors were discussing (though, let’s be honest, some of it went over my head). I was excited and nervous to learn and experience new things. I was just nervous and excited in general.

So, I’m here to try to share a little wisdom with all of you. Are you ready? Okay.

1) If at all possible, don’t take 8 AM classes.

Now, I know that sometimes it’s unavoidable. Especially for you science/biology/medical majors out there. Good luck to you.
Try not to make early classes if you are not a morning person. These classes will make you miserable. You’ll be half asleep (or in some cases, completely asleep), trying to take notes and keep up with the professor, and you won’t be able to learn a thing. Avoid them if at all possible.

2) Try to schedule your classes back to back (with an hour for lunch!), not spread so far apart you could drive a truck through your schedule.

When you have back to back classes, it’s easier to make yourself go to all of your classes. If you have time between classes, you might decide to grab a quick nap that turns into a nap that lasts a few hours. Oh, look, you’ve just missed class. Now you’ve missed notes, or an important test, or a pop quiz. That affects your grade. You don’t want that.

3) Sleep. Eat. Take care of yourself.

Yes, keeping your grades and GPA up are extremely important. But your health is more important. Now, I understand that everyone has all-nighters. Just comes with being in college. But make sure to make time to take a nap, get a full night’s sleep, rest.
Make sure you eat, as well. I know you have that 5-10 page essay due soon; but you have to be energized enough to write it. Grab snacks between classes. Grab a quick lunch between classes. Make sure to eat breakfast and dinner. Ramen noodles or mac-n-cheese counts, especially on a college kid’s funds. Just make time to eat.

4) When you write an essay, pick out your main points, your quotes, your examples–then write the essay around them.

A lot of people try to write the essay, then stick in the quotes or examples–kind of like an afterthought. Your quotes and examples should be the spine of your essay, and the rest should build up around them to complete it.
Everyone has at least one essay (let’s be real, most of them) that they just pretend to know what they are talking about. 

Accept it. Just make it believable. 

5) Email your teachers/advisors and meet with them regularly.

Keeping up to date with your teachers and advisors helps to ensure that you are not missing anything, and they can help if need be.Do not ask your college professors high-schoolesque questions. Do not ask if you missed anything while out or if you can get makeup work. This will annoy them.

Your teachers are there to educate you–let them. Your advisors are there to help you in your academic career–let them. You’ll be thankful for it later on.

6) If you don’t understand something, ASK FOR HELP.

Look, just because you ask for help or ask the teacher to clarify what they are talking about. It

 doesn’t mean you are stupid. It doesn’t mean you don’t belong there.
One of the professors that has helped me immensely, said this: “How many of you here feel like maybe you don’t belong? Maybe you feel you don’t belong in this class, in the Honors program? Guess what. Everyone feels that way. It’s called the Imposter Complex. Everyone feels like they don’t belong here, in Honors, in college. They feel like everyone else must understand things better than they can, so they must not belong. It’s not true. You all deserve to be here and belong here. Ask for help. There will always be help to those who ask for it.”
(Okay, I probably paraphrased that… A LOT.. sorry, Dr. Huelin.)
But, you get the point, right? Don’t be scared to ask for help. If you don’t understand something, seek out those who do. Your classmates, your professors, tutors, anyone. Use the resources that the school provides. Take advantage of them. If you are assigned a TA (basically they help you write essays and stuff), then go to them for help. Utilize that resource. If the school has a free tutoring program, USE IT. Go to your professors with questions. Don’t be afraid to ask questions or join in discussions in class. Chances are, there’s something thinking or wondering the same thing as you.

6) Quizlet
‘Tis a wonderful thing. Quizlet has flashcards and quizzes and such on virtually every class you can think of. Sometimes even the exact class you are taking, same teacher and all. I would advise trying to use Quizlet to help you study. Never cheat!

7)Make sure your alarms are set and correct.

You want to make sure that you are awake and ready in time to make it to class on time. You don’t want to be that guy (or gal) that walks into class ten minutes late because you overslept. Or that person locked out of the class because you’re late. Some teachers do that; they lock the door and you can’t come into class. So guess what? You missed that day’s notes. You missed a pop quiz. You missed a test. Make sure your alarms are set and correct.

8) Smuggle food of of the dining hall.

Believe it or not, this happens more than you think. People take eggs, milk, cereal, you name it. College kid’s funds are pretty tight, so people take food from the dining hall when they go to eat in there. It makes your monthly food allowances stretch a little longer.

9) If you have a lanyard with your ID, etc. Don’t wear it around your neck.

This move right here just marks you out to be a newbie. Some places, you might get laughed at. A lot. Some places, you won’t. Just depends on your school atmosphere. But hey, you do what you want.

10) Stay on top of your assignements, even if there are open due dates!

This is important. When you are assigned work, do what you can as soon as possible. Don’t leave something until the very last minute. Take your grades seriously. Do your required reading. It may be boring, but it’s required for a reason.

11) Watch where you are walking, be considerate of those around you.

If you are a slow walker, leave room on the sidewalk/hallway for others to be able to get around you. They don’t mean to be rude by passing you, you just walk slower than they do. Or they’re late. You never know. Don’t take up the whole sidewalk or hallway, please.

12) Get involved.

Join a club. Go to the commons. If there’s an activity going on, join in. These are great ways to make friends and connections. Sure, you see a lot of the same people in your classes, but you might not ever get the chance to really talk to them in class; so go be social. It’ll make your first year so much more bearable. Yes, grades are very important. I’m not saying go out and party every night (really, don’t); I’m just saying don’t hole yourself up in your room, only coming out for class.

13) Try to get along with your roommate/hallmates.

Even if you don’t particularly like your roommate or hallmates, try to get along with them. You don’t want to be living with someone that you are constantly getting in fights with or that hates your guts. Try to be friends with them. Sometimes your roommate is your best friend. Sometimes they’re not. But at least try. It’ll make things go a lot smoother.

So, there’s a bit of a list. I can share a lot of experiences from my first year. But these are the important ones. Dorm life can be very fun. College can be fun. It’s also a lot of hard work.
Hopefully, this will help some college freshman with their first year there, or even as a reminder to some returning college students.

So keep your head up, kid. You’ll do fine. Enjoy your time there and soak up all that knowledge and wisdom. 

Godly Relationships pt. 1

I took this picture because I love the light bursting around the cloud.

​In relationships, there should always be certain standards and things we strive for. As Christians, we should strive for Godly Relationships. That doesn’t always necessarily strictly mean romantic relationships. Relationship means ” the way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected” (Miriam-Webster Dictionary).
So, that could mean a relationship with your parents, your friends, a boyfriend or girlfriend, and anyone around you.

In this post, we will be talking about romantic relationship, though. Later, I will go into other kinds of Godly Relationships.

So, to have a Godly romantic relationship, there should be certain things to look for and strive for. Now, I’m not claiming to be an expert on this, by any means. I’m just stating what I have come to learn in my experiences and reading of God’s Word.

1. Dating should be for the purpose of finding a spouse.

As a Christian, dating should be treated more like a courtship. What I mean by this is that the relationship should be to search one another to find out if you would be a good match for marriage. Do you get along? Do your religious and life views match up? What are the other person’s goals in life? Is that person a godly guy/girl? The more that you learn about each other, the more you see if you are fit to marry each other (or not). Dating should not be just for kicks, something to pass time. It should be taken seriously. I’m not saying you shouldn’t have fun while in a relationship; you still need that fun. I’m saying that dating itself should not be a game to you.

2. You should strengthen each other’s walk with Christ.

You should want to help your boyfriend/girlfriend become closer to Christ. You should always put Him first and foremost. If you’re not following Christ in your relationship, you’re not leading a godly relationship. In said relationship, you should pray for each other, study God’s Word together, worship together. If you read a piece of scripture that you aren’t sure what it means, you need to feel comfortable going to your significant other to see what they think it means, and vice versa. Strengthening each other’s walk with Christ will strengthen your relationship.

3. Don’t follow society and culture’s view on relationships.

Our society and culture today views dating and relationships as a way to just have sex. They view dating in a selfish way. They want the relationship to be all about them, and they don’t give any attention or thought to the other person. They think: “How does he/she look? Do they make me happy? How does he/she make me feel? Do they meet my needs? How do I know that they’re the one for me? What if someone better is out there?” That’s not what courtship and dating as a Christian should be like. You should want to think about the other person before yourself. Try this way: “Do I make him/her happy? Am I meeting his/her needs as a companion? Is there a way I can be better for them? How can I be the one for him/her?”

4. Be honest with each other–communicate.
That doesn’t really need explaining, but I will try. You have to have communication in order to make any relationship work, but especially in a romantic relationship. If you cannot be honest with someone you are on the course to marriage with, then who can you be honest with? Sometimes, that means even the simplest of things to be honest about; sometimes that means being honest on a deep and spiritual level.  Girls, be honest with him on where you want to eat or if you don’t really like something. Guys, be honest with her if you don’t like the way she dresses or if she asks your opinion on something. Be honest about the things that annoy you about each other. Be honest about what you like about each other. If one of you is hurting, don’t lie and try to cover it up; go to your partner and be honest with them. They won’t judge you (if they do, drop them–you don’t need that negativity), they will try to help you in any way they possibly can. Just be honest about anything and everything.

5. Be pure with each other.
Now, I kind of tapped on this a few points back. Purity in a godly relationship is very important. Premarital sex is a HUGE no-no in a biblical relationship. That also means modesty. Girls and guys both, yes you have a beautiful body. You’re made in God’s image, and He doesn’t make mistakes. But that doesn’t mean show it off to the world. Dress modestly, behave modestly. The world tries to lead us to believe that men cannot control their eyes or lust–that’s a complete lie. Okay, so maybe guys do get lustful; it’s a sin, but also human nature. What we can control is the urge to act upon it. You don’t have to act upon lust. Hebrews13:4-“Let marriage be held in honor among all, and let the marriage bed be pure, for God will judge the sexually immoral and adulterous.”

6. Be yourself.

I know that sounds really cliché, believe me. But it is true. If you can’t be yourself around the person you’re on the course to marriage with, then they obviously are not the person you need to be marrying. Let them fall in love with your true colors. All your quirks, passions, flaws, annoyances, pet peeves, every single bit of you.

7. The guy should be the leader.
Now, girls, before you get your tail feathers all in a ruffle. That doesn’t mean you don’t get to have an opinion or a say in what happens. That doesn’t mean that the man gets to be forceful or disrespectful to you. That means he should lead the relationship in a godly way, setting examples. Men, that means you lead by example. Don’t you dare try to use this an excuse to be controlling and abusive, as I have seen it done far too many times. The Bible also commands you to be sacrificial to your woman. Whether married or not, in a godly relationship, this is important. Ephesians 5:21-25 – “Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands as you do to the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior. Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit to their husbands in everything.Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her.”

8. Encourage and praise each other.

That doesn’t mean worship each other. That means give each other encouragement every day. Tell each other the little things you love about one another. Build each other up. 1 Thessalonian 5:11 – “So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing.”

Now, I’m sure there are more aspects and ways to make a relationship a godly one. But these are some good starting and main points. As I said, I’m not an expert on godly relationship, and I’m still learning to be in a godly relationship myself.

But I hope this helps someone in finding a way to have a Godly relationship with their significant other. 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

Trip to Missouri: Day 1 – The Drive

Hey, all! So, for the next two weeks, I will be posting about my trip to Missouri. My grandparents live in Missouri, and I decided to take a drive up here for a visit. I’m staying for two weeks.

I’ll be staying awake at night to help my great-grandparents when they get out of bed; I’ll be keeping my grandmother company during the day as she stays with them; I’ll be helping my grandmother with errands and things around the house.

I actually arrived yesterday, but I was so tired and just wanted to spend time with family; I’m sure you understand. I plan on getting some pictures of the lake and all today. They should make for some good pictures. I won’t be posting any pictures of people, just for the sake of my family.

So… the drive. as much as I love traveling, I hate the long drives. It’s not so bad when I’m with someone else; but when I’m by myself, it gets so boring!

The drive went fairly well, and uneventful for the most part. Only almost had an accident once. And it wasn’t my fault.

So, I was going along, when this eighteen-wheeler, hauling a flatbed with cars on it, next to me decides that he wanted in my lane. And apparently, he didn’t feel like waiting until I was out of the way. So on over he comes. I press my brake, look behind me to see if the lane next to me is open; it’s clear, so I put on my blinker to move over. And as soon as I start over to that lane, suddenly there’s a car there. So they’re swerving to miss me, I’m swerving to miss them and the eighteen-wheeler, and the eighteen-wheeler doesn’t care. Thankfully, the other car could get okay the shoulder to avoid hitting me. I guess I made them extremely mad, because they sped up and cut in front of me.

I was pretty shaken up, almost in tears, hands shaking, heart skipping, chest hurting, etc., etc. I could feel an anxiety attack coming from it, but I just kept driving. I focused on the music playing and just getting to my grandmother’s house. And I kept driving.

After that, it was a fairly good (boring) drive.

Oh, except that my GPS took me two hours away from where I was supposed to be going. (Insert the angrier emoji face you can here.)

The two-hour-detour caused my family to get worried because I hadn’t arrived when I said that I would. So my mom called me, almost panicking. I reassured her and told her my location, and she called my grandparents to relay the message.

Thankfully, I still arrived before it got dark outside. I hate driving in unfamiliar places in the dark.

So, my just-over-six-hour drive turned into an eight-hour drive. Lovely, isn’t it?

All-in-all, I just thank God that I did arrive here, all in one piece, and I get to see my family.

Anyway, so that was the drive up here! I will update again tomorrow! I’m going to try to update every day! See you all again soon.

Grandma’s Yeast Rolls

Hello, all! I am back this week with a new installment in my baking segment. This week, I am making my grandmother’s yeast rolls.

Now, let me tell you when my grandmother makes these rolls, it’s like a food sent down from the heavens. My grandmother is amazing in the kitchen; I love whatever food she makes.

Okay, so first, let’s discuss what you will need for this recipe:

  • 2 packs dry yeast
  • 1 cup shortening
  • ½ cup sugar
  • 2 cups boiling water
  • 2 eggs
  • 6 ½ cups self-rising flour
  • Melted butter

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Okay, so now that that is out of the way, let’s discuss how this process went for me. So, if you remember, my last baking segment did not go very well. It ended with my cake crumbling after baking it. This time, however, everything went exactly as it should—which made me immensely happy. I only got irritated a few times, because the dough would stick to the wax paper as I was trying to knead it and cut out the rolls. Eventually, I just dealt with how many I had gotten and threw the rest of the dough away. Other than that, everything went exactly as it should.

Okay, so now that we have gotten that settled…. Let’s get to the recipe, shall we?


Yeast Rolls:

  • Dissolve yeast in ½ cup of warm water.
  • Add 1 tablespoon sugar and set aside.
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  • Place shortening and remaining sugar in large mixing bowl, mix together.
  • Add 2 cups boiling water and cool to lukewarm.
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  • Beat in eggs and yeast.
  • Stir in 1 1/2 cups flour and mix until smooth.
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  • Stir in enough flour to make a soft dough.
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  • Cover bowl with plastic wrap and put plate or cover on top.
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  • Put in the refrigerator; after 2 hours, punch down and refrigerate overnight.
  • To Prepare Rolls:
    • Remove dough from refrigerator and punch down.
    • Shape dough by rolling it out ¼ inch thick.
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    • Cut out circles with a 2-inch floured cutter.
    • Brush with melted butter.
    • Fold over in half and press the edges together.
    • Place on greased cookie sheet.
    • Let rise in warm place until doubled (1 hour).
    • Bake in the oven at 450 degrees for 12-15 minutes until golden (if you like to cook biscuits and rolls in skillet in the oven, then bake at 425 degrees).
    • Brush with melted butter.
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We ended up eating these rolls with dinner, and they were so good. They were actually just like my grandmother’s! The only time I varied from the recipe is that instead of using regular butter to brush the rolls with, I used honey butter. It turned out really well. So, there’s no certain kind of butter you have to use, just use whatever you have handy or whatever you like to use.

If you choose to use this recipe, I wish you luck. These rolls are amazingly good.

Anxiety Attack

I had my first public anxiety attack today. I’ve had them around a couple of friends or when I’m alone before, but never when I’ve been out in public in a store.

I was with my friends at a store in the mall, and I turned around, but there were people all around me and I couldn’t go anywhere. I felt trapped. I felt my airway start to close and started to get dizzy.

I tried to hold off an attack, which always makes it worse. I turned to my friends and told them that I was stepping outside the store, and pushed my way through people to get outside. I guess my friends didn’t hear me because I was out there for a long time before they realized I wasn’t with them.

I had my inhaler, but it wasn’t working to help. I was trying to ground myself, but it wasn’t working very much. My hands started tingling, then my face. I was seeing black spots. All this just made the attack worse because I had no control.

One lady came up to me to ask if I was okay and if there was anything she could do.

Then another lady stopped to ask the same.

Both times, I thanked the ladies as much as I could (since I had very little air in my lungs), and told them that there was nothing they could do to help.

In hindsight, I guess I could have asked them to get my friends’ attention.

God knows how long I stood outside that store before my friends noticed I was gone. My best friend and her husband walked right past me and didn’t notice me. My other friend called me to ask where I was. I looked up to find him, and when I saw him, I told him to turn around.

When he saw me, he came over to help me and called my best friend back over to where we were. Her husband found a chair for me since I was too breathless and dizzy to walk. My friend rubbed my back and hair and hugged me. My best friend asked me what song would help me calm down.  I told her to play Car Radio by Twenty Øne Pilots. That song helps me ground myself because I can count the tempo. Also, it’s just a great song.

After a few minutes of this, I was finally able to fully ground myself and breathe normally. I was still crying a bit. My best friend’s  husband found me some water to drink. When my friend asked me what triggered the attack, I tried to tell her but it almost sent me into another attack.

When I was able to walk, we decided to just leave the mall instead of finishing shopping.

I felt horrible. Still do, really. I hate anxiety attacks. Especially public ones, now.

Fruit Smoothies

One of my favorite summertime drinks is a fruit smoothie. I love making fruit smoothies. Now, I know there are so many ways to make fruit smoothies, and most of them these days include some kind of wheat grass or protein powder or something like that. Well, if that’s not what you’re looking for, look no further. My smoothies are just plain fruit smoothies. Tasty smoothies, I might add.

Now, first, I will tell you what you’ll need to make smoothies like mine.

You’ll Need:
– Fresh fruit
– Fruit Juice
– Yogurt
– Ice


See? Simple. Now, I put several kinds of fruit and juice in my smoothies. In the smoothies I made today, this is what I included:
– Strawberries
– Blueberries
– Bananas
– Bolthouse Farms Strawberry Banana Juice
– Bolthouse Farms Açaí +10 Superblend juice

You can use any kind of yogurt, and I usually use just plain yogurt; but today, I decided to use flavored. So today, I used Yoplait Strawberry Banana yogurt.

So first, you want to wash your fruit. Then slice your strawberries (I used 5 or 6), separating the leaves from the body of the strawberry and slicing the body  into pieces. Place the strawberries into your blender (I am using an older model Ninja blender).



Next, peel and slice the banana(s) and add to the strawberries in blender.


Put in a handful of blueberries, and you’re done with the fruit (unless you want to add more–feel free).


Next add the juice(s). I don’t actually measure how much juice I use. I just pour some in until I feel like it’s a sufficient amount. This way of measuring used to bother me so much; but baking with my great-grandmother and my mother made me used to it and now I do it, too.


Next, you’ll add the yogurt. I used a little over half a cup of yogurt today, but sometimes I use more or less. Just put however much you want.


These smoothies really just depend in your personal tastes.

Once you add the ice, blend until everything is mixed together, and pour into cups!




I make these every summer, with different variations of which fruit a use (depending on who I’m making them for).

I hope you enjoy these, and add your own personal touches to them!

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